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When there is no plan to follow, you have to create your own.
To me, there is no such thing
as limits, but only
people who try to limit you.
When I reach to what appears to be the end,
I improvise. There are no limits, just momentary stops.
You can get injured,
and that’s just a price I pay
for being too into this lifestyle,
but don’t ever tell me to stop.
I will no longer be slowed down,
even gravity is starting to piss me off. People say this is a hobby,
“Focus on school”,
“Hobbies are for fun and don’t last forever.”
But this isn’t a freaking hobby anymore.
Somewhere along the process,
I remembered the old me.
The girl that wanted to be something more,
that wanted to be an athlete,
a soccer player.
That wanted to stand on that field, with a smile on her face,
a ball at her feet,
a fire in her heart,
and a dream waiting to be achieved.
I don’t know what made the little kid lose sight of her dream.
Perhaps I was scared,
I had been hurt one too many times.
I had been injured one too many times. I became lost without soccer.
I became regular, and didn’t want that life.
My friends got closer to each other, but me,
I got closer to the game.
Like limits,
fear is just an illusion.
Another test from the universe
to see how badly you want to succeed. I promise the little kid inside of me, that we are going to do this.
No matter what!
No matter the cost,
No matter how much I sweat,
No matter how many tears I cry,
No matter how many friends I lose, No matter how many sleepovers I miss. But is it really sacrifice
if you love what you’re doing?
I’ve realized now,
that there is nothing,
nothing in this world,
that I want more
than to play professional.
I want to feel the adrenaline
of running with the ball.
I want to make magic on the field.
I need this.
This is my drug.
There are no options.
Anything else would be
taking the easy way out.
I don’t want to be the girl who almost made it.
Too many people give up
at the first struggle they experience. People are saying to dream big,
but I don’t see anyone doing anything
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