Page 121 - The Letter By Ann Newhouse

death. Then you have to weigh up the pros and cons of telling him about your relationship with his father’.
She stood and started to boil the kettle, ‘Do you really love him?’, she asked, ‘you have to be sure no doubt at all’.
‘I thought that I did but everything is so confusing now’.
‘You also have to be sure that he loves you and could live with the knowledge of his father and you’.
I knew she was right, but I just didn’t know how to sort all this out in my head. ‘Amber’, she sat back down beside me and taking my hand softly said, ‘this may sound cruel, but this confirm what Rex has been saying about his parents, that they loved each other unconditional and could not marry or dream of loving someone else’?
‘I can’t tell him who his father was or who he was to me’, I almost whispered, ‘I’ll have to think of something else to tell him’.
‘Be careful if you want to stay together you don’t want a relationship built on lies’, she advised.
‘Amber honey, I am sorry, but I need to get back to the bar, there was no one to cover me I just ran out the door’, she made a move to leave.
‘Thank you, Penny’, I hugged her goodbye, ‘you’re a good friend’.
Alone I looked at the photo again willing it to be a mistake, hoping to see two different people smiling back up at me. I let out a cry or maybe it was a scream. Is this why you wouldn’t marry me? You loved someone else you had a son!