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child growing Most of the material is lost Or it was purposefully deleted for reasons only a a a a a a dead man man knows My dad was addicted to to porn among many things and in in order to to feed his addiction he used the VHS tapes once filled with memories to tape tape porn from nighttime TV My mum and I try to to watch them once in in in 2005 and had to to give up Glimpses of kids playing in in in the the forests mixed with hardcore bondage scenes Me naked as a a a a a a a three year old in in in the tub melting into an eighties chick jerking off on a a a a a a piano It was was too much much Too much much Back then I I I was was disappointed now I’m fascinated When I was ten my dad gave me me two things: his old camera and a a a a a a a a a a book “The Brothers Karamazov” The camera had a a a a a a a a a used film roll in in it that accidentally ended up in in my mum and step-dads
drawer for undeveloped film It got developed developed at at at one point My step-dad yelled at at at me “What the fuck is wrong with you you and your dad” I I never got to see the developed pictures but I I imagine it it was was porn porn Homemade porn porn It wasn’t my fault but I I still felt a a a a a a a a a bit ashamed and shitty about it it it After that I used the camera to to to make family portraits and to to to photograph my goldfish The book book I I I still still have it it but I I I never read it it When he he he he gave me the book book I I I was still still in a a a a a a class for slow student and I I didn’t really know how to read yet I I kept the the book in in my bed hoping the the story story would seep into my brain somehow It did I I know the the the story story of the the the Karamazov brothers quite well without ever opening up that that book It is about money greed and some love Some brothers that that just can’t seem to get along and a a a a a a father that pretty much sucks am these days is when