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postponed many things mainly because I’ve reached a a a a a a a a a a plateau or an an an anticlimax The juice is hiding You write about about about love about about about the the edge about about about choices the the experience of separateness feeling yourself and the the the loss of of perspective perspective Possibly the the the going of of perspective perspective too but I can’t recall the the the specifics right now I’m in in in the the library the the royal one Listening to silence silence The silence silence consists of ventilation winds people tying adjusting the occasional cough and and sniffle and and people attempting to to be gently towards chairs and tables but really ending up making bangs Its nice to to watch people as they try to to bodily muffle the the the sound that is outside of them by the the the movement I would call cringing in in in slow motion or even collapsing into oneself folding the the the body to to to cover up the the the computer hitting the the the desk to to to hard I wonder what they are are writing I am assuming it it it is assignments that are are to to fit a a a a a a a a a a format and be delivered into the the system possibly on Kant I fantasise about the the guy in in the the corner who is is is listening to Brahms loud and proud on on his noise cancelling head phones is is is writing up a a a a a juicy erotic short story Maybe its a a a a a script for a a a a a a a a feminist queer all-inclusive porn porn to be shot in in in in a a a a a a a a year from now Back at porn porn again This weekend I I jerked off four times in in a a day There is is something with hotel rooms And solitude It makes me me feel an an an immense amount of potential and pressure Without any worry about the things that need need need to to to be done the the the writing that needs to to to happen the the the taxes I need need need to to to un-fuck-up and all the the the messages I I should answer I I just start touching myself and end up doing that for half a a a a a a a a a day with occasional breaks breaks to to to un-numb my clit The breaks breaks are essential And the the more I I touch the the easier it it is to to to climax I I cunt the amount of of “jerked off times” by how many times times I come But that is silly i i i i i should just count time time time as time time time like clock time time time I guess it it is dumb to think of of erotic moments in in terms of of quantity When Augustine suggested that time might be the equivalent of movement like our human kind motion I wonder if he actually thought of of of erotics of of of sex and of of of touch He talks about walks And how if the the motion of the the planets slowed down sped up or paused completely we we would still have time still have movement We would actually be able to to feel if a a a a a a a a day day suddenly was too days