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Ender did not get home from the Ribeira house until late that night, and he spent more than an hour trying to make sense of all that happened, especially after Novinha came home. Despite this, Ender awoke early the next morning, his thoughts already full of questions he had to answer. It was always this way when he was preparing to Speak a death; he could hardly rest from trying to piece together the story of the dead man as he saw himself, the life the dead woman meant to live, however badly it had turned out. This time, though, there was an added anxiety. He cared more for the living this time than he ever had before.
"Of course you're more involved," said Jane, after he tried to explain his confusion to her. "You fell in love with Novinha before you left Trondheim."
"Maybe I loved the young girl, but this woman is nasty and selfish. Look what she let happen to her children."
"This is the Speaker for the Dead? Judging someone by appearances?" "Maybe I've fallen in love with Grego."
"You've always been a sucker for people who pee on you."
"And Quara. All of them-- even Miro, I like the boy."
"And they love you, Ender."
He laughed. "People always think they love me, until I
Speak. Novinha's more perceptive than most-- she already hates me before I tell the truth."
"You're as blind about yourself as anyone else, Speaker," said Jane. "Promise me that when you die, you'll let me Speak your death. Have I got things to say."
"Keep them to yourself," said Ender wearily. "You're even worse at this business than I am." He began his list of questions to be resolved.
1. Why did Novinha marry Marc o in the first place?
2. Why did Marc o hate his children?
3. Why does Novinha hate herself?
4. Why did Miro call me to Speak Libo's death?
5. Why did Ela call me to Speak her father's death?
6. Why did Novinha change her mind about my Speaking Pipo's death?