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comparison will also allow us to experience the “duration of natural conditions”. The duration of unwholesome natural conditions that used to stay in our mind for a very long time becomes briefer. Although they (Translator’s note: Unwholesome natural conditions) emerge consistently— cease then emerge, cease then emerge, cease then emerge— but, we will experience that although they emerge again and again, each time they become vaguer and vaguer.
If the unwholesome phenomena are lighter and lighter, how do we feel? If the unwholesome thoughts stay briefer and briefer, if they are lighter, how is our state of mind? Better, correct? Better, better—better how? More peaceful, more stable—these natural conditions impact our mind less. We see a mind that is developing. “How is our dhamma progressing?” Practitioners always wonder— time and time again. This is the problem. When we do not observe changes, so we only relate that we do not want them to emerge. If we say: “Thoughts are here again, they are disturbing me again!” Then, this shows that we do not want thoughts to emerge, because we do not like the things that we think about. So, we say: “Do not enter, do not enter, I am meditating.”
If we have the intention to know this way, it will change many things in our lives. We may like to pent up emotions, may like to keep things in our mind. But, if we contemplate to extinguish things in our mind constantly and