Page 180 - WLMIG_6132004.indd
P. 180

experience of his personal guidance. Practicing his teachings and experiencing his love builds strong and loving families.
What Happened to My Husband?
When Sam first
went to India in 1972
in search of a miracle,
I could not understand
his determination and
intensity. For years he
had been searching for
the meaning of life and
always asking, “Is there
a God?” I, on the other
hand, chose not to ask this question, perhaps fearing an unacceptable answer. If there was a God, how could He allow such suffering in the world?
I worried continuously during Sam’s initial four-week trip to India. What would happen to our four young daughters and me? Would Sam drop out of society and stop supporting us? Would he want to drag us off to India with him? Would he become one of those holy, beatific people, spouting platitudes and appearing strange and pretentious? I was filled with apprehension and fear. Fortunately, he wrote frequent leers home so that I could share his experiences. In addition, I discovered one connection with Sai Baba that gave me courage during the long month of Sam’s absence; that is, I was born on Sai Baba’s birthday, November 23. This one small thread somehow kept me connected.
Sam returned from India transformed. He had always been a good person, a responsible and loving husband and father, but he had also been restless and always searching. He returned from India ignited by the certitude that “God is on earth!” I could only gasp in amazement. He tried in many
 180



















































































   178   179   180   181   182