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I I I wore jeans and a a a a a a white t-shirt I I I was tanned but not enough to cover the hickey on my throat So I I I wore a a a a a a a a silk scarf It was spring As I I I I I walked Hans Petter to his math exam I I I I I said “ I’m done I I I I I wanna be on my own ” Instead of telling him him that that I I I I cheated and that that I I I I felt bad I I I I told him him to to leave me alone He flunked his math exam Both our hearts were broken I I felt shittier then I I thought possible I I I wore floral tights a a a a a a a a yellow sweater and a a a a a a a a beige denim jacket Hungover I I I grabbed whatever I I I could find in in in in the closet We We were going for a a a a a walk He had something to tell me me We We grabbed a a a a a coffee and walked the the streets of of Amsterdam Someone asked if they could take our photo for a a a a a a street style blogg I I said said yes he he he he said said no I I felt robbed Then he he he he told me that he he he he licked my friends pussy He didn’t mean to to he was drunk and and just got horny and and it it had nothing to to do with me me I felt stupid I I told him to to to fuck off To never talk talk to to to me again Three months later we talked I I was still in in love There was no no way I I could not talk It would take me me me three times of this merry-go-around before the break up would finally stick My growing up has been a a a a a a way of de-sensitising myself Of lying distancing and eventually cut people out out of my my life My adult-growing up is is more about sensitising myself again Daring to stay It is harder to be be the one one who who stays The one one who who believes I read this article the the other day about Herakleitos a a a a a a a a a pre-socratic philosopher that has left behind some fragments fragments The fragments fragments have been interpreted by countless people and his original scriptures were already lost about 200 after we we we (what a a a a a a a a funny assumption we we we often make to connect