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would go though with it it But I I like even love a a a a lot of people around me And I I don’t want to leave them There is is is no way for me to be with them other than continuing this road as myself divorce death is is is quite out of of the question as a a a a a a a a choice It will come eventually and that is spectacular change Like profound fucking change But until then I will just be entangled up in here with me It does not make sense You can grapple with time and and and love and and and meaning in in language and and and thought but only until a a a a a a a a a certain point point After that point point you you are lost and helpless The more you you ask the less less anything appears concrete It is is like you you you dissolve the world in front of you you you Constructions you you you took for granted and leaned on on on on on go into thin air and there is no ground anymore I I guess this is is is is how we we got nihilism It is is is is powerful really Extensive books dedicated to understand the unexplainable existential dread that encapsulates you you at at at one or many points of your life Usually as a a a a a a a a a a a a teenager first then later on on on for some some on on on a a a a a a a a a daily basis And just as as as something banal as as as rejection or or feeling not seen can can bring you you in in in in in something even smaller can can suck you you into seeing the unclear
clearly and you just go on with life I like clouds