Page 20 - Total War on PTSD

I have made a ton of progress since I began my own personal quest for answers...for solutions...to the beast that is PTSD. My own threat assessment — maybe I should call my ‘bomb’ damage assessment — is that I am 85% home. That last 15% is a bitch. The truth is that writing this book has taken a bit more time than it might otherwise have taken because there is construction work being done next to my house and every now and then some form of equipment or another will shatter the sense of peace that is my home, triggering the memories of the war zone I was stationed in, and the next thing I know I literally feel like my skeleton wants to crawl right out of my body, leaving my skin behind on the floor...while my psyche runs screaming from the house.
But enough of the extremes, that was just a temporary feeling...albeit a very real one for me...but I am getting there and you can to. This is just the unalloyed, unvarnished, unseen truth about where I stand in my own personal recovery. Maybe you and I can do this together with the help of the pages of expert insights that I have accumulated over the last two years.
Where once, when drinking or occasional drugs may have filled the gaps, or rather numbed the senses in between work and family life, there is now an opening that needs to be filled...an opening where jarring thoughts about combat seep in...seeing a rocket go right overhead and hit the building right next to you...experiencing military sexual trauma or even rape...crawling through holes as a tunnel rat with no flashlight...climbing into a crashed plane to realize you are removing the body of a fallen friend...parachuting in darkness and then watching your plane go down into German territory; all of this can all come flooding back and overwhelm your senses, your mind and your body.
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