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the negative “issue” is diminished to “nothing”. The negative disappears, it just is gone one day. David says it depends on what you are doing and how you are in your own healing. That is what happened to David in the Blu Room. His negative disappeared to nothing, and what was left was love.
He cries exhausted after he explained this, and the look in his eyes speak to a much greater understanding than he has words for. David describes that after January 2018 the Blu Room helped him heal something that now is peaceful and calm, like a shadow that got lifted.
He cries because he has no words for what happened to him. How do you say that something in the depth of your being, that you felt throughout your life but could not give words to, but you could feel sitting there with every breath and that was like a nagging shadow? That is what got healed in David through the Blu Room. He can best express it in his eyes with his tears, and this thing that happened is bigger than words. And yet because it happened he is now able to speak better, and his brain is continuing to heal.
David continues to improve, and he surrenders to his journey. He is scheduled to get an implantable defibrillator put into his heart soon due to his low pump function. A few months ago, he had some chest pains, but now despite his poor heart function, he does not have any symptoms of heart failure. He is accepting his journey and is doing what he needs to support his improvement, including following up with his doctors and continuing the Blu Room treatments.
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