Page 189 - Total War on PTSD

“The emotional reaction in the peak experience has a special flavor of wonder, of awe, of reverence, of humility and surrender before the experience as before something great.” - Abraham Maslow
Courtenay: Whenever possible, when I was still in Afghanistan, if I got back to my room early enough and could get a decent internet signal, being able to talk to my tummy via Skype always helped to cheer me up. Most especially, it allowed me to feel more connected with him than I ever would with just a phone call.
We always had the Ice Age background turned on, as we both liked the movie, and loved Scrat in particular because he always seemed to make me laugh. Most of the time I had to extend the internet wire so that it was long enough that I could sit just outside the room (in the hallway). I did this if I wanted more privacy than usual, if it was late in the evening, or so I would not awaken my roommates.
The need to talk to him overrode my uneasiness with sitting in a semi-darkened hallway...but I always sat with my back partially against our room door so I could pound on it if I had to in an emergency. Sometimes this ‘safety’ practice led to my falling backwards into the room if someone ended up coming out...but that didn’t happen too often.
When it was earlier in the evening I could stay in my bunk and would keep my voice down as well as listening to Danny with my headphones...so at least we had a little privacy and I wouldn’t bother my roommates too much.
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