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The only thing that I've ever known for sure is that happened to me that was any type of head injury was when I was still Active Duty (but off-duty at the time). It was my 21st birthday and I was with a bunch of friends and we went to a club in Nashville, and I got pretty wasted pretty quick. One of my buddies took me out to lay down for a while in the back of his pickup truck. Well, later on he decided that he was going to go for a drive and I was still passed out in the back of the truck. He was apparently totally lit when he did this. I don't recall any of this, but he apparently got on the interstate and he rear-ended a guy while going 110 mph. I woke up in the hospital with a few stitches in my head and wondering what happened, where I was and why I was there. I can't prove that the injuries sustained from that accident caused some of my issues but I can't disprove it either. I have had two spinal-fusion surgeries. I have degenerative discs and spinal stenosis now too.
For years I dealt with this issue that came from that event where, whenever I had to make a major decision, I just kind of froze. And what I think what it was is because, for years, I thought that in that moment in Iraq that I just froze. I didn't just into a foxhole or a vehicle...I just stood there. Really, through counseling with the VA and all, I came to realize that I was doing something, I was pulling security...I was doing my job. Until I realized that, with every decision I had to make, it seemed like that if I would stand still long enough that the need to make a decision would just go away.
I still see a VA Social Worker every two to three weeks now. I had a major setback in August of 2018, that lasted about three weeks. It was rough...I was extremely depressed. The good thing was that I was going to counseling during that time...I saw both my Social Worker and my
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