Page 189 - Total War on PTSD

“Industrial hemp is a very useful plant. I challenged the attorney general to get rid of the criminal stigma associated with hemp so we can look at it in terms of how it might be useful.” – Jesse Ventura
Courtenay: Often, when I am feeling overwhelmed with triggers or situations I can’t control, I try to isolate myself in an attempt to avoid or alleviate the way I am feeling. I prefer not to talk to anyone and I have difficulty Iing any emotions, feeling more alone as a result. I feel my ears burn when my blood pressure goes up...when I get angry or frustrated with myself or others...which can burn on a pretty short fuse.
At these times I am also hard on myself because of various reasons including short and long-term memory issues, having a high startle reflex, having a lot of trouble concentrating, and even lying awake and feeling angry in the middle of the night with no idea why I’m up.
Early on I felt like I could deal with, and talk to others but as my frustration grew so did my tendency for isolation, getting to the point where I let others do the talking and I fill the role of silent observer.
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