Page 812 - Total War on PTSD

I was in an abusive training unit that was eventually shut down because of its abuse. I went to a fitness training unit first. They had all the Drill Sergeants who were in trouble, and they would take bets on us, things like that. Somehow, I went from there to a regular training unit. I was already injured by then but I was still trying. Then I found out that the same kinds of things were happening there too. I had gone to the Chaplain initially and I tried to tell him some things but he told on me. Of course, it sounds so silly now but he told my leadership that I was sneaking to the PX (the on-base store). If I couldn't tell him something like that in confidence, why would I ever tell him the other stuff? I just kept thinking if I could just get out of here that I'd be fine...if I could just get to my next duty station, I'd be fine.
I had stress fractures that led to a fractured hip and knee. My right shoulder was stretched out of my socket from having to use crutches extensively. I passed my physical because my shoulder was hyper-flexible. My shoulder would dislocate very easily. Five surgeries later I still have issues with my shoulder. Someone finally figured out I was missing about half my cartilage in there, so that's probably been a large part of my problem. The first surgery they did a capsular shift, the second a decompression, then a rotator cuff, a heat version, then a shoulder reconstruction. The procedure that they used to tighten up my capsule with the use of heat was an experimental procedure that they stopped doing because it did not work. It actually ended up making my shoulder condition worse.
I'm too young for shoulder replacement. They tried a spinal cord stimulator, but the doctor didn't place it high enough, so it doesn't help my right shoulder. I am trying to get that taken out because it covers my left shoulder, but it's supposed to cover both shoulders and my neck. And the battery still moves around. I just don't like it. To this day I do not understand how I became so damaged in such a short period of time and why I did not get the care I deserved. I have had
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