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Well, later on he decided that he was going to go for a drive and I was still passed out in the back of the truck. He was apparently totally lit when he did this. I don't recall any of this, but he apparently got on the interstate and he rear-ended a guy while going 110 mph. I woke up in the hospital with a few stitches in my head and wondering what happened, where I was and why I was there. I can't prove that the injuries sustained from that accident caused some of my issues but I can't disprove it either. I have had two spinal-fusion surgeries. I have degenerative discs and spinal stenosis now too.
For years I dealt with this issue that came from that event where, whenever I had to make a major decision, I just kind of froze. And what I think what it was is because, for years, I thought that in that moment in Iraq that I just froze. I didn't just into a foxhole or a vehicle...I just stood there. Really, through counseling with the VA and all, I came to realize that I was doing something, I was pulling security...I was doing my job. Until I realized that, with every decision I had to make, it seemed like that if I would stand still long enough that the need to make a decision would just go away.
I still see a VA Social Worker every two to three weeks now. I had a major setback in August of 2018, that lasted about three weeks. It was rough...I was extremely depressed. The good thing was that I was going to counseling during that time...I saw both my Social Worker and my Psychiatrist and I was prescribed some mess and stuff so they were able to help me through that mess. I don't know what the trigger was that time around. I think there were too many possibilities rather than too few. We just had a lot of things going on at that period of time. I am open to therapy of many different types. I have undergone Group Therapy, Cognitive Processing Therapy, one-on-one counseling, and am currently taking medication as well as receiving
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