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don't go to see fireworks or anything like that. I stay in my apartment. For me, the loud sounds, the bangs, the bright lights, they are all triggers for me, so I just don't do that.
I have a PTSD diagnosis. My first exposure and knowledge about PTSD came about after my first suicide attempt when they hospitalized me for around 90 days. I have been hospitalized for PTSD a total of four times, I think. I have had a lot of treatments, a lot of ups and downs, kind of like a roller coaster. What I have learned now is that I just have to ride it out. Just because today is a bad day doesn't mean tomorrow is going to be bad. I used to be really down on myself, but what I have come to realize is that while I may be broke, I'm not permanently broken. I still have a chance to rehab myself. I've been working out, walking more, etc. I have a chance to make a comeback of some kind. I just don't know what yet. My mobility is much better now. I am able to, and I do, walk two miles a day. Just last year I had my left hip replaced. When I fell, it compromised my joints so much that I am going to have to get my let knee replaced and my right hip replaced within the next three to five years. My joints are just trashed. I have had 15 surgeries so far.
When I got hit with the roadside bomb, that's what caused a mild TBI. Then they brought me back to garrison and did six months of rehab and got back on jump status. Then my first jump under jump status when I was in the middle of parachuting, somebody dropped their equipment into my parachute and I dropped 75 feet to the ground. That's what completely compromised the left side of my body, and then started the surgeries, and the TBI from that (which was upgraded from mild to moderate-severe), and the combination of all the injuries I had sustained over a six month period (including the initial TBI), and the Army decided that was enough and they discharged me (medically boarded me)...all within the next six months...I was on the express route for discharge. I didn't immediately go to the VA for care after my discharge. When my
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