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Coming home, we had it made. People loved us. I worked for Walmart 3rd shift and they gave me 1st shift and they had a lottery for a T.V. I didn't even enter the lottery and I won the T.V. That was kinda cool. When we came home to S. Carolina, and even though I didn't have family there I was still cheered on by everyone else's family. It was really neat. I had a lot of troubles re-acclimating to the world and coming back to the states. Thunder and lightning would strike and I'd be underneath the counters, on the floor. My PTSD gives me a lot of anxiety. I get really anxious. The other day after I had my surgery and got back home, Meika wouldn't leave me. When I was in bed she would lay on top of my feet. Both dogs are the same way...they wouldn't leave me alone. If it wasn't for the psych. meds. that I need to take I probably wouldn't go there anymore. Their service is just that bad. For psych meds the doctor does a really good job. I am in the MEICAM Program because I tried to commit suicide last year. The program is intensive case management...so I visit with a guy twice a week...and see the meds. doctor whenever I need to. I just call her and we have a meeting. And that's cool because it used to take two to three weeks to see the med. doctor. And then if the med. change didn't work then you had to wait two to three more weeks before it would be changed again. This way I'd see the doctor right away and it would get changed right away. Any time I have problems I call and talk to them. They're great. It's almost like having a counselor right there and ready for you.
It's kind of funny...but it's not...I got a Sexually Transmitted Disease (STD) from someone, somewhere...when I was on leave. I did not know that you could go to any base and 'get taken care of'. So, I waited till I got back to Germany until I saw the doctor. Oh, my lord was I in pain by then. It was funny though...it was funny. You know...because everyone was laughing...they knew I could have gotten it treated anywhere but I didn't know that...I wasn't thinking. Most of my military experience, I was a drinker, so it was all about drinking. And the Gulf War made it
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