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cope with the horrible things he saw — it took him about eight years after the war to come to terms with his life. There was something else that happened.
David explains that he experienced the Blu Room as both negative and positive for several sessions. Then something happened to him in January of 2018 and since then all his sessions were positive. He says that it was not the Blu Room that was negative, it was that something in his being was out of sync. David did not realize that his body and mind were not in harmony. Then in January he felt in the Blu Room like his body, his age and everything about him caught up with himself. After that, everything was all right.
David’s neighbor Helena notes that she was the one he came to when he had his heart attack in 2014 and she called 911. Having known him for many years, she describes David’s transformation over the past year nothing short of miraculous. She says David used to be a grouchy, grumpy man, easy to get angry and have a temper. In the last few months she notes that he is so sweet, completely transformed, moved to tears in his emotions and able to express them with the people around him. Helena notes this is not the old David, he is completely new, completely transformed, and unrecognizable from his old self.
David explains that the Blu Room can help you heal at your own pace. If you add to it by intentionally working on healing yourself and your attitudes, it can help you speed up your healing. He says he added to his healing by looking at this “negative” in his life, his “shadow,” this being out of sync with himself. He explains that if you are adding more to your healing then it will take even less time in the Blu Room, until there is a time where the negative “issue” is diminished to “nothing”. The negative disappears, it just is gone one day. David says it depends on what you are doing and how you are in your own healing. That is what happened to David in the Blu Room. His negative disappeared to nothing, and what was left was love.
He cries exhausted after he explained this, and the look in his eyes speak to a much greater understanding than he has words for. David describes that after January 2018 the
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