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08/11/2016, 07:20:30] Lou Siggers: Fire alarm went of so got up dressed and
that false alarm. Not great way get up. Didn't sleep too good kept going over and
over why you attacked me so bad about josh finger. It's not the finger. It's
underlying. I think you have quite a big issues with me. Sometimes I feel as
though you even hate me. It's good we have some time apart now so you can
have a think about everything you said over last few months to me I thought the
meltdown was a turning point but this week I feel you slipping back again - can't
carry on being abused like that. However hard it will be on my own I don't
deserve that.

[08/11/2016, 07:26:54] Lou Siggers: Have an amazing holiday. Say hello to Ian

[08/11/2016, 08:06:38] Siggy: At the airport, all checked inn, sitting at Jamie
having coffee

[08/11/2016, 08:11:24] Lou Siggers: You are destroying my confidence. I'm
sitting having my breakfast and I just want to go home. Your making me feel
worthless. Telling me not to bother with my kids. That's still my main job. Spend
ages this morning trying help sam with his eczema. Really sore

[08/11/2016, 08:12:34] Siggy: Sorry you didn't sleep well, I am sad you are
feeling the way you are. Bottom line I love you and always will. I want us to work
and for us to be happy!!!! The fact you feel I am abusive towards you is not right
and I am truly sorry for being abusive. I guess I am getting frustrated at times
and it boils over in stupid behaviour from me. I am excited about us and our
future and I really care about you and the kids

[08/11/2016, 08:17:00] Siggy: Hope your course goes well today xxx

[08/11/2016, 08:23:37] Lou Siggers: I just feel that the last ten years has been
filled with so much stress. Lots of amazing times with kids and you of course but
a lot of stress too. I feel so worn out sometimes. And I thought after couple weeks
ago that maybe we can put it ALL behind us (which takes some doing) and carry
on with our fresh spring in our step and really have good times. Within weeks
you are telling me I make you feel a whole list of horrible things. And I'm horrible
too. I just can't cope with it. I have no fucking interest in this course now. I just
want go home I can sometimes see why Physco felt so worthless and that
nothing was right. I can handle it all but undermining me as a loving caring mum
just tips me over the edge

[08/11/2016, 08:37:50] Lou Siggers: I need go check out now and pack up. Have
safe flight x

[08/11/2016, 08:39:43] Siggy: Thank you, good luck, will speak later xxx

[08/11/2016, 15:50:12] Lou Siggers: U landed ok x

[09/11/2016, 12:03:16] Lou Siggers: U on here

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