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ourselves to show the real person we constantly stifle   ZGP: Can music make us better humans?   a network, found a sponsor, gained service positions,
 naked and unabashed before the world. That is the gift   How can our individual passions, sufferings   and from it gained a whole new life I never dreamed
 music gives us. When we find others that listen to the   connect us all?  possible. I attended meetings regularly until the pan-
 same things, we feel we met a friend for life, someone   Absolutely! By sharing our passions and our pain   demic began, and now I attend them when and where I
 that understands us, and feels the way we do. It gives   openly, it helps maintain a genuine human connection.   can. I am always in touch with someone in my network
 us the courage to be who we really are. You can garner   We realize our self-worth, and a sense of belonging   though, whether my sponsor or another alcoholic/
 much about a person based on what they have in their   in kindred spirits through these shared experiences.   addict, I stay connected. I celebrated my 7th year of
 music catalog.   These connections abound with gratitude, humility,   sobriety on April 17th. I have developed many tools on
 and understanding; giving us a landscape to where our   this spiritual journey to maintain physical, spiritual,
 Music is invulnerable and will never be destroyed or   wanton desires for love and acceptance take form.   and mental fitness. It's never perfect but its progress!
 fully created. We even play to imitate the sounds of
 nature. Music is constant, unwavering, and infinite! It   It also produces a solid foundation for people to step   ZGP: You mention community engagement
 binds us, like the Force in Star Wars.  out of themselves and into another's perspective and   and activism, what type of altruistic work do
 understand that they are a part of this cosmic wheel of   you do?
 ZGP: If there wasn’t any music to go by, you   life. We all play a part in this swirling drama of twist-  I was heavily involved in service work with other ad-
 had to create it – how would you start? How   ed beauty and at times unbearably tragic fate. Sharing   dicts and alcoholics. I help plan and set up of various
 important is musical influence? Today and   brings us together in our struggles and triumphs, to   sober/social functions like dinners and dances and
 going forward?   show we are not alone.   bring meetings to jails and institutions. If my experi-
 When I write music, I follow my own drive, perspec-  ence and outreach can help at least one person find a
 tive, and knowledge of music in general. I start with a   ZGP: How did you make it to a 12-step pro-  better life, then it’s worth every ounce of suffering I
 concept or a feeling. Then I think, “How can I go about   gram and what does recovery look like for   endured.
 translating these thoughts and feelings into music, and   you now? Do you attend meetings? Complete
 channel it so it can be interpreted by the listener as   abstinence? Is your recovery a spiritual   I have also participated in fundraising, help at soup
 to what was going through my mind?” Other times, I   journey or part of a religious organization? I   kitchens, as well as donate to various charities. I start-
 have used familiar stories from authors and others to   split those up because some folks, like my-  ed taking part in conservation efforts for Barn Owls
 guide me towards something that will pull the listener   self are very spiritual and others are quite   in MD. Their numbers have dwindled unfortunately
 into another realm. Musical influence is greatly im-  involved in organized religion, both work for   due to pesticide, so I hope to be a part of turning that   Follow Josh Johnson on Instagram
 portant to us as a species as it brings us closer to one   those they work for.   around. I have also participated in social and political
 another than the internet could ever dream of. Music   activism by engaging in all levels of government on
 spans literally the entire globe; even Metallica did a   I always fancied myself a hardass, but drugs and al-  pieces of legislature that would endanger the environ-
 concert in Antarctica. We must continue to make mu-  cohol had stripped me to my core. I made it into the   ment or our inherent rights to life and liberty. I have
 sic that speaks to each other and brings us together. In   rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous by the grace of my   protested, written letters, headed petitions, sat before
 this may lie the true key to salvation from humanity's   Higher Power. I had many experiences with recovery,   senators and congressman, participated in the civic
 greatest enemy, itself.  both court ordered and voluntarily. Multiple relapses   process as an Election Judge, and was a delegate at
 and multiple jail sentences increased with time and se-  the 2016 Democratic National Convention for Bernie
 ZGP: What hobbies do you have outside of   verity. I was so sick, cross addicted to various substanc-  Sanders.
 music?  es, and in a completely hopeless state of mind, body,
 I really am all over the map and a bit eccentric in my   and spirit. I became increasingly desperate for a solu-  I have found great joy and a strong sense of accom-
 hobbies. I am a strong advocate for the environment   tion. My first sponsor called it “the gift of desperation,”   plishment that I may leave this world in a better con-
 and the outdoors. I enjoy fishing, hiking/backpacking   a catalyst for real change when you're at the bottom.   dition than when I was brought into it. Whenever I
 through different locales, travelling, target shooting,   achieve goals, overcome great obstacles or progress to
 photographing nature, kayaking, collecting artifacts or   I literally got down on my knees after two days of   another tier in life, I simply remember I did it One Day
 stones, and camping. I build models and collector edi-  detoxing at my house to say the sincerest prayer I had   at A Time.
 tion Lego sets. I also read a lot of science and politics   said in years. I wept as I prayed to be released from
 and temper that with comics and sword and sorcery   the slavery of substance abuse, unsure that my prayers
 novels. I play videogames. I also enjoy tinkering with   would be answered. This prayer was answered in the
 cars and electronics.   form of Alcoholic Anonymous.


 After that I went to 102 meetings in 90 days, developed

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