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In 2018, participated in Miss Univer- them. So that is what we did
over the next 6 months. We
se Japan, I won the prefectural event
WILLIAM to advance to the national level. I was did hours of con sultations,
and
coaching
prac tices
1 out of 46 other girls, pageants
between shoots. The shoots
are toxic environments where ever
ISHIWATA little detail of a person’s body is eva­ themselves whe re both
luated, judged and discussed.
in the studio and out si de.
Being in nature is a great
This experience left me with emo tional way for a woman to con-
& trauma pain and made me de pres sed. nect to her feminine. (See
We all seem to live without wor ries,
the pho tos by the waterfall
but in fact we constantly com pare
and in the river).
AYAKA ourselves to others. I feel that this What we call the “revenge”
is the reason why there are so many
lin gerie shoot was an ama­
people who create their own comp lex
KODAMA and lose their self-confidence. I was zing success. Everything
about the energy, intention
one of them. That was my background
and atmos phere of the shoot
at the time I started shooting with
William.
was different than the first
one. I did employ a young
2020 was the year that everything fema le assistant for the day
児玉彩夏 changed for so many people. For and it was a huge success.
me in Miyazaki it met no more trips
to shoot with models in Tokyo also Ayaka was totally in her
that I could not get models to tra vel power and we were able to take some
to Miyaza ki. In June 2020 two events real ly great images. It also took about
happened that totally changed 20 hours of preparation, consultation

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my out ook as a photographer. and conversations before the shoot FINAL WORDS FROM AYAKA:
The first is that I started taking to really get to the actual root cau ses

advanced level cour ses and priva- of her body shame issues. The fact 自分の中に、ほんの少しでも自信が芽生
te coaching. The second is the first is that we were able to address えたらどうなるのか。あとはもう、植物を育
linge rie shoot that Aya ka and I did and work together to create an envi­ てるように、水をやり続ける。別に完璧に育
We started shooting together in March 2019, together. During the shoot absolute ron ment and wardrobe that Ayaka ち終わらなくてもいい。残りの人生、ちょっ

terror and fear radiated off of her could feel completely safe in. (See とずつ水やりしながらセルフラブをしてい
at the time I was planning on opening my studio WILLIAM ISHIWATA in waves. Her lack of bo dy confiden ce the lin gerie photos). けばいい、ウィリアムさんとの撮影を通し
Canadian, 42 years old and body positivity hit me like actual ly て、そう思えました。
to students for photography lessons so our first • Moved to Japan July 2000 a physical force. The second to last shoot that we did

• Been in Miyazaki since before Ayaka moved to Tokyo was
ever shoot was really, really basic about diffe rent October 2009 I had to stop shooting and allowed what I called the “boss bitch/ God-
• Professional photographer her to shoot with her female friend dess/ Queen” shoot. The main purpo- What I did I learn through my expe-
kinds of studio lighting. since 2013 and I helped them set up shots se of this shoot was for Ayaka to see riences shooting with William?

• Founder of 合同会社fotografixx for the rest of the time. I started her transition into the divine femi- Self confidence grows over time,
• Currently working to apply a lot of what I was learning ni ne. We set up a very rich shoot, it is not an absolute, it does not switch
on the “phoenixx project”. to our conversation sessions bet- loads of pretty good fake diamonds, on or off. My self confidence grows

ween the shoots that we were doing. Auba de lingerie and a Prada dress. a lit tle at a time like the flowers

AYAKA’S OWN WORDS ABOUT HER BACKGROUND BEFORE OUR FIRST SHOOT: AYAKA KODAMA (児玉彩夏) We had already shot a yoga book All of which helped Ayaka feel into in my garden, I have to take care
Japanese, 28 years old toget her in April and May of 2020. embodying the power and trans­ and wa ter them from time to time.

私がウィリアムさんと初めて撮影のお仕事をさせて頂いたのは、ちょうどミスコンに出場 Model formation into being a self confident It is the same with myself confiden ce
してすぐのことでした。私たちは皆、何気なく生活しているようで、実は他人と自分とを比 • Miss Universe Miyazaki 2018 The thing I didn’t really understand is and bo dy po sitive woman. We both and self love. I have to maintain them
べてしまっていて、自らコンプレックスを作り出し、自信を喪失している人が多くいるよう • Moved to Tokyo June 2021 that beautiful women who are mo dels like BlackPink so this line was a major both, keeping away from toxicity
に感じます。私もその一人です。県の代表として日本大会で競い合い、良くも悪くも自分 and look amazing have really deep inspiration for the shoot “Didn’t wan- and letting in the light and warmth.
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自身という人間を評価され、傷つき落ち込んでいたわけです。ウィリアムさんとの撮影の body complexes and issues. I real y na be a prin cess, I’m priceless, A prin ce Flowers are not always perfect but
仕事をスタートさせたのは、まさにそんな最中でした。 wanted to help Ayaka work through not even on my list” they are all beautiful and I am too.
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