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OUR VERY LAST SHABBAT TOGETHER

Friday was a good day for Joyselyn, and I must say better than most. We had some fun playing and joking.

As evening came and Shabbat was nearing, she began a conversation on more of a personal note. We

talked about what dreams we had for our future when she got better. We were both hopeful and trusting
that God would see fit to light our path and make away. She was still in pain. I could tell how she spoke

and handled herself, but that heavenly smile came through as Joyselyn continued to assure me that she

was okay and not to worry. She always had a habit of doing that, always looking out for me. She talked
about making plans to meet Tyler, Danielle, and the girls and working on her garden; Joyselyn always

enjoyed growing things. As the night got longer, the pain became more and more unbearable. I asked

several times if she wanted to return to the hospital, and she always replied, " No, I will be okay.

She had an appointment with a doctor for a procedure to relieve her abdomen pressure called EGD
(esophagogastrodenoscopy). On Monday, January 20th, just two days away.

I helped Joyselyn undress for bed as I usually do and removed her socks, pants, shirt, and undergarments.

Help her in bed. Because of her sleep problems, we had not shared the same bed for quite a few years. I

would take the sofa cushions and put them on the floor beside her to hear if she needed help. We had a

rule that she would call me to help when she needed to visit the restroom. Why would she ever think she

was a burden on me? I sure do not know what to do. I feel so lost without her. How could I have been so
stupid? Why did I not call for Ambulance hours sooner?

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