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So, missing the joy that surrounded this heart. How my spirit did soar.
My Joyselyn was all things to me. Every need was fulfilled in one lovely little package. I miss her ALL. All that I had; all

that I had become is so far gone. Life on this sorry earth will never be heavenly anymore. The love and hope she gave
was a countless treasure. It could only be Heaven-sent. She could not or would never keep it in hiding from me. Such
trust, trust I have never deserved. A love never deserved. She was so much of a life lesson. A lesson for this life and

that yet to come. Oh’ how I wish I had been a better student. How I wish I had been man enough to step up and do
my part as a loving husband. God sent her; how could I not be in love with her? That has been the easiest thing in my

life ever to do.

Joyselyn has always tried to show me how much Adonai loved me; lead me to a place where I could find enough love to

share with Him. A love deeper than the one I held out for her. Being alone now for six months, I still cannot let go of
her. I cannot find any more room in my heart, and if I do, I am so afraid of pushing her away. Joyselyn is all that I have

known for thirty-plus years, all that I thought I would ever need to know for an exceedingly long life to come.
I know if there is a chance to reunite with my Joyselyn, I must find that space. I asked the Father to make me a better
man, a man that follows His heart. He sent me my Joyselyn. Now He has taken her home, so it’s now on me to stand

up-right and trust in Him alone.

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