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THE CONFESSIONS OF A BROKEN MAN

I made our life so difficult, and my darling wife Joyselyn was so committed to me, our marriage, and our Heavenly
Father. I have never known anyone stronger than this woman. She stuck by me through hell on this earth. A hell of my

making. She prayed for us through many callous times. Loved me despite my stupidity and disregard for her
feelings. How she put up with me, I still am at a loss for understanding or words. One would think that I would have
gotten it right after thirty-plus years, but not even close. I have only myself to blame for this failure as a proper

husband. Joyselyn’s faith in The Lord and countless prayers is the only thing that got us through. I depended on her faith,
her strength to limp my way through this life, and Heaven’s Gates.

Never recall once taking responsibility as a spiritual leader in our lives. How she kept her sights on me as a man and a
husband goes beyond my comprehension. I am now eight months without my Joyselyn, and now starting to see with
hindsight the destructive and sinful choices I made that kept us from an even more meaningful life together. Please note,

all the while with my Joyselyn, and I loved her. More than any earthly words could describe because there was nothing
profane about her. She was heaven-sent to rescue me.

She was God’s gift on loan; how could I not be In Love with her? Suppose I were to live another seventy-plus years
knowing what I know this day and giving myself over to the will of my Adonai. In that case, I could never gain enough

rewards to surrender to this precious Love of my life, my wife, my Joyselyn…my second element.

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