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When the time came, they set up their equipment and asked me to leave. I refused. I told the doctor I promised to stay
with her, not to leave the room. The doctor ordered me to leave. I declined a second time. He said he wanted to avoid
getting security involved. I agreed and told him I would sit in the far corner of the room and blend in with the

wallpaper. He said they would find me when they had finished; besides, she would be out of it and not even know I had
left her bedside. My reply, but I will know. I will not lie to her; I’m not one to panic, causing you any problems. So, let us

avoid a scene and get on with it. A second doctor stepped up and said it would be okay. He understood. Fifteen, twenty
minutes later, they had finished.

They ended up doing both procedures. Joyselyn slept for about five hours after, and I caught a few hours as well. All

the Meds! IV push every forty-five minutes, more every hour. Blood testing every forty-five minutes. Some are taken
through the IV site, more with a finger jab. The bed had alarms set in case she got out of bed on her own. A nurse

monitored every bathroom trip. I felt so helpless. The only thing I knew to do is pray and hold her hand. So difficult
seeing her cry and in so much pain. Confusion from the drugs, not knowing what was happening to her. I witnessed the

most amazing, her faith in Yahusha, singing praises, and seeing the smiles appear through the tears. Earlier I was asked
what makes a woman smile; this is the answer I give for this woman, my gift from heaven, my Joyselyn. Where was she?

Where was she taken in those moments of joy? I believe the Father came visiting. He has never failed to put a smile on

her face, not even in her darkest hours. I am still looking for that faith, that assurance, that love from the Father. If I
sound a little envious, I am.

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