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Heart of Darkness

from our proximity to a great human passion let loose.
Even extreme grief may ultimately vent itself in
violence—but more generally takes the form of apathy….
‘You should have seen the pilgrims stare! They had no

heart to grin, or even to revile me: but I believe they
thought me gone mad— with fright, maybe. I delivered a
regular lecture. My dear boys, it was no good bothering.
Keep a lookout? Well, you may guess I watched the fog
for the signs of lifting as a cat watches a mouse; but for
anything else our eyes were of no more use to us than if
we had been buried miles deep in a heap of cotton-wool.
It felt like it, too—choking, warm, stifling. Besides, all I
said, though it sounded extravagant, was absolutely true to
fact. What we afterwards alluded to as an attack was really
an attempt at repulse. The action was very far from being
aggressive—it was not even defensive, in the usual sense: it
was undertaken under the stress of desperation, and in its
essence was purely protective.
‘It developed itself, I should say, two hours after the fog
lifted, and its commencement was at a spot, roughly
speaking, about a mile and a half below Kurtz’s station.
We had just floundered and flopped round a bend, when I
saw an islet, a mere grassy hummock of bright green, in
the middle of the stream. It was the ony thing of the kind;

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