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graph into the memory hole, along with some other waste
       papers.  Within  another  minute,  perhaps,  it  would  have
       crumbled into ashes.
         That  was  ten—eleven  years  ago.  Today,  probably,  he
       would have kept that photograph. It was curious that the
       fact of having held it in his fingers seemed to him to make
       a difference even now, when the photograph itself, as well
       as the event it recorded, was only memory. Was the Party’s
       hold upon the past less strong, he wondered, because a piece
       of evidence which existed no longer HAD ONCE existed?
          But  today,  supposing  that  it  could  be  somehow  resur-
       rected from its ashes, the photograph might not even be
       evidence.  Already,  at  the  time  when  he  made  his  discov-
       ery, Oceania was no longer at war with Eurasia, and it must
       have been to the agents of Eastasia that the three dead men
       had betrayed their country. Since then there had been oth-
       er changes—two, three, he could not remember how many.
       Very likely the confessions had been rewritten and rewritten
       until the original facts and dates no longer had the small-
       est significance. The past not only changed, but changed
       continuously.  What  most  afflicted  him  with  the  sense  of
       nightmare was that he had never clearly understood why
       the huge imposture was undertaken. The immediate advan-
       tages of falsifying the past were obvious, but the ultimate
       motive  was  mysterious.  He  took  up  his  pen  again  and
       wrote:

          I understand HOW: I do not understand WHY.


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