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don of watch-dogs, in addition to the soldier guard. He was
           retaken, of course, flogged, and weighted with heavier irons.
           The second time, they sent him to the Coal Mines, where
           the prisoners lived underground, worked half-naked, and
            dragged their inspecting gaolers in wagons upon iron tram-
           ways, when such great people condescended to visit them.
           The day on which he started for this place he heard that Syl-
           via was dead, and his last hope went from him.
              Then began with him a new religion. He worshipped the
            dead. For the living, he had but hatred and evil words; for
           the dead, he had love and tender thoughts. Instead of the
           phantoms of his vanished youth which were wont to visit
           him, he saw now but one vision—the vision of the child who
           had loved him. Instead of conjuring up for himself pictures
            of that home circle in which he had once moved, and those
            creatures who in the past years had thought him worthy of
            esteem and affection, he placed before himself but one idea,
            one embodiment of happiness, one being who was without
            sin and without stain, among all the monsters of that pit
           into which he had fallen. Around the figure of the innocent
            child who had lain in his breast, and laughed at him with
           her red young mouth, he grouped every image of happiness
            and love. Having banished from his thoughts all hope of
           resuming his name and place, he pictured to himself some
            quiet nook at the world’s end— a deep-gardened house in
            a German country town, or remote cottage by the English
            seashore, where he and his dream-child might have lived
           together, happier in a purer affection than the love of man
           for woman. He bethought him how he could have taught

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