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what is is happening within me me And I do not wish for you you to to give me me free access to to your innards either To close the valves of our attention is to practice freedom Even if I I were able to say more I I would not now ~
I I do do not want people to go back back in closets I I do do not want transgressions tucked back under suf- focating rugs Secrecy has become equated with scandals cover-ups gross injustices However we’ve jettisoned all secrecy—confusing reti- “By enacting guarded borders we we were talking back to a society bent on under- mining our integrity ” cence with shame As a a a false remedy to oppres- sion we have encouraged exposure no matter how how unexamined no matter how how oblivious to motive or or consequence or or the disassembly of virtue Some confession no matter how grisly and true is calculated thinly-veiled boasting When the the pit in in the the belly rumbles loneliness instead of of sitting with with its aching truth we douse it it it it with with with the junk food of rapid and fleeting contact with with with “friends ” Sharing without without intimacy cannot bring healing healing because healing healing without real rela- tionships is is impotent Gospel secrecy is is conceal- ment grounded in in intimacy not a a a conspiracy to silence injustice Gospel reticence is predicated on on knowing and and being known in in in such a a a personal way that to bandy about this knowledge violates the the mystery of the the relationship A friend confided: Sometimes I look at my my wife and this feeling comes up in in in in me me me of such intense love that to say something feels cheap I hold it in in in in me me me like
the best secret At times to to to remain true to to to the ineffable is to to to refrain from words It’s not about about keeping dirty secrets it’s about guarding a a a a sacred trust Ours is a culture intent on flinging open shut doors We get nervous about what goes on in there out of view We childishly protest that we have the the right to know: How does mine compare am I repressed is it better over there? Our end- less curiosity about sexual practice and partner configuration points to a a a juvenile fixation on on on on such affairs as the criteria for virtue We are weirdly worried about about mechanics obsessing about about tech- nique and and implements and and the morality of of part placement We are suspicious of obscured flesh Covered women must be oppressed by their hus- bands Such reasoning reveals the the impotence of our own imaginations We split open every veil forgetting that the exposed face of god will kill us All intimates know a a a a a shut door can enhance plea- sure To see in in secret secret is to reward in in secret secret ~
The minutes of of SAS’s final recorded meeting in- cluded a a comprehensive list of ideas:
Save money for trip
Adopt Adopt a a a a a child from another country Adopt Adopt a a a a highway
Put up up babysitting advertising signs Make commercials on made-up projects Pet sit advertisement
Sleepovers
Recycle Day
Day
Earth Day
Day
Group walk to school SAS Sign
Kids Sale
Moment of Silence
Garden
I paused and smiled that the the Secretary struck through “SAS Sign
” Clearly these little girls deemed making a a a a sign that advertised the the club’s club’s existence not in in keeping with the club’s pledge (continued on on next page)
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