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“The curse of the blank page ” ” also known as “writer’s block ” ” I’ve been thinking about this phenomenon what what part part stereotype what what part part experience and I’ve decided for the following What is called the “writer’s block” must be one of two things: (1) a a a person sitting sitting down down to to to write write write who isn’t ready to to to write write write yet and (2) a a a person sitting sitting down down to to to write write write who isn’t ready to write yet In In the the first case the the person who isn’t isn’t ready to write isn’t isn’t stimulated enough In In the the the the second case case the the the the person who isn’t ready to to write is is too stimulated In either case case the the the the person sitting down to to write will have a a a a a a a hard time accessing language Where to to start after all when you you haven’t felt enough of what you you want to to write about? Where to to start too too when when you’ve too too much feeling and and which one do you you begin with and and when when in in in its timeline?
To be understood Skye told me that that the great thing about my writing is that that she can *
understand it it She said that about a a a a a a piece of writing I though was borderline obnoxious almost repulsively basic I am currently reading Sleepless Nights by Elizabeth Hardwick and let me tell you something So much of of of my experience experience of of of that book thus far is the experience experience of of of falling through the Alice’s hole part part experience my own inexplicable part part language precise self-conscious self-knowing self-aware It is is a a a a a textured experience part hand sliding eyes closed into a a a a a a a a a bowl of skinned grapes part face rubbed against raw asphalt deafening screams distracting from physical pain part STI you you don’t know you you have bacteria having the the time of their life part sitting down with a a a a a a a a woman telling you a a a a a a a a heart- breaking story about detail of her life in in no particular order your lids filled with tears your cardiovascular system on fire You are feeling so much for her her – – – – and and and and yourself yourself – – – – and and and and her her – – – – and and and and yourself yourself – – – – and and and and you you you are confused because half of the things she is telling you you you you don’t understand O O body swayed to music O O brightening glance How can we know the the dancer from the the dance?
Of course one could always ask who writes what in which which way way and for which which purpose? One could also say some things need need to to be be written written and they need need to to be be written written in in in a a a a a a a specific way way no matter the the effect they might have written out in in in that way way on anything or or or anyone at at at any any one one time For me me this negotiation is is what I’d like to hear more people discuss *