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For example a a a a a a pattern could be noticing that a a a a a a stimuli follows a a a a a a nerve pathway in a a a a a a a a a a a a a particular way way and so it creates a a a a a a a a a a a a a pattern pattern Or a a a a a a a a a a a a a pattern pattern could be that a a a a a a a muscle has a a a a a a a tone And it keeps cramping in in a a a a a a a specific way A A pattern could be that you end up arriving at at at a a a a a a a similar thought working with a a a a a a a system repeatedly So something something of patterning manifests or emerges through repetition And something something of of patterns emerges through one already having had the experience of of So because you’ve been experiencing something in in in the present moment you you don’t even need to to think of it There’s already the thing you want to to call a a a a a a a pattern And I really hope this doesn’t sound more complicated complicated than it it it is is is And it it it is is is complicated complicated But it’s also a thing of poetry The reason I’m telling you you this is is because when you’re then approaching a a a a a BMC BMC book book I I I find I I I read read BMC BMC books especially Bonnie’s writings I I I read read it it as poetry and and I I I I read read read read read it it it it and and reread it it it it I I I I read read read read read a a a a a a a a sentence once I I I I read read read read read it it it it twice I I I I read read read read read it it it it slowly I I I I I I I I I read read read I I I I I I I I I feel feel feel feel feel I I I I I I I I I read read read I I I I I I I I I feel feel feel feel feel I I I I I I I I I feel feel feel feel feel I I I I I I I I I feel feel feel feel feel I I I I I I I I I read read read I I I I I I I I I feel feel feel feel feel and I’m constantly negotiating and asking myself the question: what does this actually mean? Because understanding through my brain doesn’t really do do do it for me and and I maybe don’t know that that understanding through the the the brain is is the the the point Except that that it maybe is is the the the point point because one point point of BMC is about reflecting experience in in in in language and finding ways to report and engage fin in in an an an exchange It is for me a a a a a a study of communication And communicating specifically Flexible terminology expression being another example where you talk about how something expresses itself The question implying that you might actually not speak the the language of the the thing that is being expressed yourself So you’re constantly on on the the lookout for the the tiniest detail so as as to to be able to to ask is is this a a a a pattern emerging is is this an expression of something specific? At the same time as as expression being a a a a a a flexible term can mean letting something literally just pass through so so that it wouldn’t get stuck somewhere and create trouble Which is an an example of repatterning ”
A message to Ilse transcribed 2020-03-11