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Internalogue Joshua J. Williams Have you ever been so, internally conflicted from the external. That, you can’t even say simple words in an expressive way. That you try to think of what to say but blank out. Or you know what to say but, negotiate your own silence. So indecisive or cowardly even though from your point of view. No matter what you say, it doesn’t matter. No matter which way you go, it’s an end, dead. Through this indecisive cowardice you accept where you’re at, stagnant. So this is okay, even though you are more in your own head nowadays, Lost in thoughts, isolated, all alone? But maybe you emit a signal beacon. Someone else is let in but they just assumed. That some people just want to watch things burn. But you don’t want to watch it burn. The problem is all you can do is watch and pretend not to see. Look, the problem is that nothing is burning, You, through a transparent display, looked up on Youtube fire and clicked play, looped. There actually is no problems, no conflicts. So why be Conflicted, Indecisive, Cowardly? Because there could be, and, I wouldn’t blame anyone else if there was. I have been wrong before, about, lots of things. I don’t want to hurt, or hurt others. 25