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the very name of chores sounds like it's boring, tiresome and hard
work and energy consuming. I found that doing each job separately

in awareness was less energy consuming on my body and the job

actually went smoother as there was an absence of tension and

frustration and further jobs on my list of to do's that I felt were a

burden on my time.

I often found that when there was a strong resistance when trying

to complete a job and no matter how hard I pushed against it, it still

stood firm, I would put that job aside and reconnect at a future

time. This very often went very smoothly when revisited again.

There are times when it's difficult for me to walk very far and at

these times would walk through the journey in my head before leav-

ing the house. I would visualise all the resting points along the path

where I could stop for a moment. Browsing at shop windows, lamp
posts to lean on were firmly plotted in my head. There was constant

fear that I might not be able to get back home again and for a time

became very reclusive. I began playing relaxing speaking meditation

music on my phone and went out with headphones on, over time I

became more and more relaxed as I walked and my confidence

grew, the pivotal moment was recognising that I was singing in my

head on one journey. I realised how much fear of a possible situa-
tion occurring had hindered my life.

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