Page 117 - ILIAS ATHANASIADIS AKA RO1

I am 27 years old and I forgot what is like to have fun.To be in love

it is a great feeling but nomatter what yo u will pay some price as a

punisment to love.

I grow up very fast I almost feel and think like I am fifty, my

thinking the way I respond to situations are work of an old man.

If I say I never thought of Nikos I will be a liar, everytime I was

about to do something he was there watching how I will do it and he

will correct me to do it better every new step he was next to me and

without anyone notice I use to whisper yo him over my shoulder.

I was doing it so often I end up believing he was there but news

travel fast and I learn he and Ju;ie are in Santorini. How can he have

sex with her It was impossible for me to picture him in sexual

activity with Jullie.

Is he holding her hand and hug her like he did to me? Is he in love

with her and I pause my thouights and ask myself. Was he really in

love with me/ Or he was with me because it was convenient to be

with me.

I torture myself and I don

t know why? I should stop thinking about itand move to future and I

did and when I gad to think of him I did but change the memory to

todays activity and thi is how I go out of all the memories and kept

the best ones .

Athens finish for me and I do not desire to go back there. The

summer in mykonos it was a dream friom time to time I was telling

marso not to ever slap me because I wikk wake up from the dream I

am living and it is perfect