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Hesitantly I hurried to the shop down stares from my apartment to meet the

detective. At the door a man in a blue suit, black shoes and a two-dollar haircut
asked, Are you Michael Walrath? Yes. I answered. Before I could add anything else

he responded. This is about Tonya. Then ask me if I would join him in his car.
Once in the car the detective told me the bad news Tonya is dead! It rang out like a

gun shot that hat hit me right between the eyes Tonya Is Dead! Some ware deep
inside of me I already knew it but that was no consolation. My wife was gone. The
woman that I love was gone. The woman that I had been so angry with the day

before was gone.
If you could only realize the hurt, panic, sorrow, and guilt I felt at that moment.

After all I did leave in a state of rage. I did raise my hands to the air and shout to
God. Please Take This Woman Away From Me! I did leave not even saying goodbye or

telling her that I love her. She Was Gone!
I won’t go into detail of what happened to her here. I will just say that it was not

from natural causes or by her own hand, and it was very brutal.
No I don’t blame God. I also don’t blame myself. And Of course I certainly don’t
blame Tonya.

It was not Tonya’s fault that she had a disease. And God has no fault. God searches
our hearts and he will give us what truly resides with in. As far as my self, though

even though I know I am not to blame. A part of me knows that if I had been able to
pray to God with an understanding of prayer and how to communicate what was in my

heart long before this tragedy had ever happen it might not have went down like it
did.

This sad but true story has many morals. One could be never leave a loved one in
anger without telling them you love them. There are many more you could derive

from this tale. But the one that I am here to stress is, learn to speak to God. Talk to

him every day. Tell him what is in your heart and on you mind. Ask him to help and

guide you, to give you strength and wisdom. But the most important thing is Never

Ask God For Something That You Are Not Ready To Receive.