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this awareness by tricking ourselves into believing that the outer world is ultimately understandable by our mind and lasts forever. We place hope in fame, fortune, family, friends, and even our work. We develop a sense of security in our momentary prestige and power. Perhaps we have accumulated impressive possessions and people respect us. Perhaps we have a strong body and mind. This false sense of security weakens as our ego diminishes.
Deep inside we know that all this external plumage passes all too soon. All are just passing clouds. Something in our life brings on this rude awakening. Perhaps we lose a close family member or friend, or we have an unexpected diagnosis of a terrible terminal disease. When we see that nothing in the outer world holds lasting security, we are faced with what I have termed “mortal fear.” We are terrified to see that everything in the entire external world is ephemeral and passing, and that our personal individual identity, the “I” that we identify as our body, our ego, will die.
Seeing the impermanence of position, wealth, friends, family, body, and mind causes mortal fear, and an experience of profound nothingness. If we can release this fear of nothingness, we will find the eternal bliss of merging in Sai. By loving God and becoming aware of His omnipresent protection we overcome mortal fear.
Love Sai Baba’s Uncertainty
God has been described as an enigma, hidden in a question mark, lost in a puzzle, shrouded in mystery. Swami uses his perceived uncertainty and incomprehensibility to rid us of desire and ego. A personal relationship with him is absolutely priceless in teaching us to love God’s impenetrability and to not be aached to the consequences of our acts.
This story describes an experience I had with loving and accepting Swami’s uncertainty. Accepting God’s uncertainty
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