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The Process
Fueled by my yearning to re-experience Swami’s love, I began meditating regularly in the early morning. Part of the time I would try not to think, releasing myself into an inner expanded experience of deep peace, and part of the time I would think.
In reverie, I would re-experience the bliss and love of being with Swami. Then I would strive to understand its meaning. How did this level of consciousness relate to psychiatry? Trying to capture and express Swami’s reality was like trying to grasp formless space with a mind that could not contain it. Yet, sensing some aspect of his vastness, I aempted to bring it back to earth and give it some concrete form by means of
words and concepts.
Swami says that he can transmute earth into sky
and sky into earth, and I thought that I was partaking in that process. It seemed that Swami had taken me as an earthbound creature and brought me into the sky (spirituality), and that it was my duty to try to capture some of the sky and bring it back to earth.
The Missing Link
One morning in early 1998 aer a period of meditation, I finally saw the missing link that brought clarity and deeper meaning to my overview of Swami’s teachings. I suddenly understood more clearly the process of the purification of mind and heart and how it was a necessary and important part of the path. On the one hand, our spiritual path results in character development and a refined conscience that reveals what is right or wrong. On the other hand, if we are to see everything as divine, we must give up seeing everything as separate. As we relinquish our aachment to things that promote our feeling of separateness, such as money, position, prestige,
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