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Anna Karenina

‘Dolly will think I’m leaving my second husband, and so I
certainly must be in the wrong. As if I cared to be right! I
can’t help it!’ she said, and she wanted to cry. But at once
she fell to wondering what those two girls could be

smiling about. ‘Love, most likely. They don’t know how
dreary it is, how low.... The boulevard and the children.
Three boys running, playing at horses. Seryozha! And I’m
losing everything and not getting him back. Yes, I’m
losing everything, if he doesn’t return. Perhaps he was late
for the train and has come back by now. Longing for
humiliation again!’ she said to herself. ‘No, I’ll go to
Dolly, and say straight out to her, I’m unhappy, I deserve
this, I’m to blame, but still I’m unhappy, help me. These
horses, this carriage—how loathsome I am to myself in
this carriage—all his; but I won’t see them again.’
Thinking over the words in which she would tell
Dolly, and mentally working her heart up to great
bitterness, Anna went upstairs.
‘Is there anyone with her?’ she asked in the hall.
‘Katerina Alexandrovna Levin,’ answered the footman.
‘Kitty! Kitty, whom Vronsky was in love with!’
thought Anna, ‘the girl he thinks of with love. He’s sorry
he didn’t marry her. But me he thinks of with hatred, and
is sorry he had anything to do with me.’

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