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Anna Karenina


                                  earth; but I’ve struggled with myself, I see there’s no living
                                  without it. And it must be settled.’
                                     ‘What did you go away for?’
                                     ‘Ah, stop a minute! Ah,  the thoughts that come

                                  crowding on one! The questions one must ask oneself!
                                  Listen. You can’t imagine what you’ve done for me by
                                  what you said. I’m so happy that I’ve become positively
                                  hateful; I’ve forgotten everything. I heard today that my
                                  brother Nikolay...you know, he’s here...I had even
                                  forgotten him. It seems to me that he’s happy too. It’s a
                                  sort of madness. But one thing’s awful.... Here, you’ve
                                  been married, you know the feeling...it’s awful that we—
                                  old—with a past... not of love, but of sins...are brought all
                                  at once so near to a creature pure and innocent; it’s
                                  loathsome, and that’s why one can’t help feeling oneself
                                  unworthy.’
                                     ‘Oh, well, you’ve not many sins on your conscience.’
                                     ‘Alas! all the same,’ said Levin, ‘when with loathing I
                                  go over my life, I shudder and curse and bitterly regret
                                  it.... Yes.’
                                     ‘What would you have? The  world’s made so,’ said
                                  Stepan Arkadyevitch.
                                     ‘The one comfort is like that prayer, which I always
                                  liked: ‘Forgive me not according to my unworthiness, but



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