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lection, or a hope, that any power could separate from you!’
She raised her eyes, and clasped her hands, and looked
as beautiful and true, I thought, as any Spirit. The Doctor
looked on her, henceforth, as steadfastly as she on him.
‘Mama is blameless,’ she went on, ‘of having ever urged
you for herself, and she is blameless in intention every way,
I am sure, - but when I saw how many importunate claims
were pressed upon you in my name; how you were traded
on in my name; how generous you were, and how Mr. Wick-
field, who had your welfare very much at heart, resented it;
the first sense of my exposure to the mean suspicion that my
tenderness was bought - and sold to you, of all men on earth
- fell upon me like unmerited disgrace, in which I forced you
to participate. I cannot tell you what it was - mama cannot
imagine what it was - to have this dread and trouble always
on my mind, yet know in my own soul that on my marriage-
day I crowned the love and honour of my life!’
‘A specimen of the thanks one gets,’ cried Mrs. Markle-
ham, in tears, ‘for taking care of one’s family! I wish I was
a Turk!’
(’I wish you were, with all my heart - and in your native
country!’ said my aunt.)
‘It was at that time that mama was most solicitous about
my Cousin Maldon. I had liked him’: she spoke softly, but
without any hesitation: ‘very much. We had been little lov-
ers once. If circumstances had not happened otherwise, I
might have come to persuade myself that I really loved him,
and might have married him, and been most wretched.
There can be no disparity in marriage like unsuitability of