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it simply carries on by itself.

Now the man says after so many years, he realized that God had not once shown his face to his
creation. He had not once intervened. He let his creation destroy itself as if he didn't care. The man
says at that point he isn't so much concerned with the wills of the lifeforms as he is with the will of
God.

For years he claims that God is a hypocrite, saying he has given will to his creation yet has no will
of his own. God never responds. This man says that those were his last words to God, and since
then he has been waiting for God's reply. The man says knowing God for as long as he did, he will
probably only speak through the actions of his creation.

I ask the man how he knew God, and he tells me that he was once one of God's angels. I start to
wonder that if maybe it was this man who was running the entire universe instead of God, if our
lives would be better. We would however have no free will, but that's of course if free will is what
we think it is. I say to the man that perhaps God has actually intervened. I tell him about Moses and
Jesus, and the man says that God was not in these people.

He says that Moses and Jesus were just two of the people who were born from people who
murdered and stole and deceived. That Moses and Jesus learned and chose to deceive people
because of the free will they were given by God. I ask him about the people who God has spoken
to, people like Abraham, and he tells me that these people were disillusioned. They saw God
because they needed to see God in a world such as this one.

Now there is a familiar-looking man walking towards us, and after he passes, the man I am talking
to tells me that the man who just passed us is the antichrist. I ask him why he looked so much like
Jesus, and the man tells me that it was merely a mask. Just like the mask he himself was wearing a
mask.

I arrived at the home of Joe's mom, Kathleen, still wondering why she could have possibly wanted
me to visit her. By the end of the night I realize that she has been alone since her husband died.

All the relationships she had in the past ended in bitterness because of the sins of her son or ended
because the other person had passed away. It's funny how once someone reveals that they are a
homosexual, they immediately become a different person. The friends they had and the people
they knew, some of them disappear. However, that's not to say that some of them don't stay. There
are always people who will accept you for who you really are, or even who you really aren't.

Like so many other people, Kathleen, Joe's mom, suffers from isolation within. Like so many
people she is surrounded by billions of lifeforms, yet manages to feel alone, and so now in her
times of desperation she reaches out. She seeks forgiveness not from me, not from Joe, not even
from God, but from herself because self-acceptance is the beginning of the end. Accepting that she
was not strong enough to say no to her husband and the others who condemned her son. She tells
me that when Joe wakes up she wants to be next to his side, she wants to move on with the little
time she has left, and she wants to die satisfied. Not in those words.