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power and divine nature, have been clearly seen, being understood
through what has been made, so that they are without excuse….”

I look back on my earthly family and I feel blessed that my
parents brought me to a church, so that I heard about Jesus at an early
age. My father loved Billy Graham. I have fond memories of sitting
with him in front of our little TV watching Billy’s crusades. I saw my
Dad being visibly moved by those broadcasts. Even though he went
to church regularly, He never shared about his relationship with the
Lord, even after my salvation, until I asked him one month before he
died, at age eighty-nine, whether he was born again. He smiled,
nodded his head and earnestly acknowledged “Oh, yes”, as he shared
with me the story of his heart salvation as a teenager in knickers and
how that church eventually drove him and his group of his friends
away because of those knickers! I’ve looked back on the yearning I
had as a child to be close with my brother, and how He did, in His
amazing way and perfect time.

I saw that for the first thirty-five years of my life, I had
ignored my awareness of a sovereign, wonderful, all knowing God,
and attempted instead to be powerful, wonderful and a wise “Wonder
Woman” within myself. I’m amazed at the patience and mercy that
He has shown me. I marvel that I’m even still alive, after the many
foolish things I’ve done in my life. I have no trouble knowing that I
am a sinner and am in need of my Savior. As a matter of fact, now
that I’ve begun to see how glorious our Lord is, I’m even more
convinced of that. Yet, there is no guilt. Romans 8:1 “There is
therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.”

I’ve spent many years of my life in therapy or various other
attempts at self- improvement, trying to find direction for myself and
Fred. In the end, God had a plan, a perfect plan, in spite of all my
endeavors. However, I wouldn’t change any of the past. I needed to
go through that process to realize that this earthly life is not meant to
be heaven; its meant to drive us to the kingdom of God within which
is in Christ Jesus.