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the hierophant/ jezebel
pick yr objects & yr raiment. figure out
what will be yr body before you open yr eyes
try not to cheat & don’t let anything in
before you know yr cover. every single inch
of yr body should become a legend. every single inch
of yr body may or may not have lived. every single inch
of yr body will be remembered as something else entirely.
this is yr war.you lack the hands
for them to catch. yr snaps are intermittent,
they fall back on themselves.make yrself what is
wanted don’t know yrself see what is wanted know
yrself know you will never be wanted. you are not beautiful. not you & nothing else. know yr hunger.
antiphonal & holy in yr first words. take
the blood & not the body in yr mouth. drunk on the blood
& songs out between waking & tale­telling like the dead. songs of yr body that no one has seen, songs off yr tongue that
may or may not be, songs from yr family. music that makes you
a mother, music that makes you a child that has never been seen, yrself small against the stones of yr teeth,.
.
they live with their dead & are always shifting
(pray for them)
& every morning first pour from hand to
hand (pray for them) count 7 breaths in your mother tongue
(this may take yr whole life.you may always pray in words
that have nothing to do with you. yr mouth will stream apologies in the place of blessings. you will choose accidents.it is possible the best thing would be to lose yr tongue altogether.)
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