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I WANT YOU TO WATCH MORE CHEERFUL TV SHOWS AND FILMS. I WANT TO HOLD
HANDS SOMETIMES SO YOU CAN SEE THE CALLUSES EMBEDDED INTO THE PART
OF MY HANDS WHERE THE PALM MEETS MY FINGERTIPS. I WISH WE COULD BE
TOGETHER BUT NOT ACTUALLY EVER PHYSICALLY BE TOGETHER. I WANT TO BE IN
LOVE WITH U BUT MOSTLY I WANT TO BE IN LOVE WITH ME. I WANT U TO RUN YOUR FINGERTIPS ACROSS MY HANDS. I WANT TO SUCK ON YOUR FINGERS AND I WANT TO SUCK ON EVERYTHING EVEN IF IT'S POISONOUS AND NOT GOOD FOR
ME. I WANT TO HAVE SEX WITH YOU THATS BETTER THAN PORN BUT I WORRY THAT U PROBABLY HAVE VANILLA SEX BECAUSE YOU ARE A CANCER LOL. I WANT U THOUGH SOZABOUTIT. I KEEP THINKING ABOUT LADY GAGA SCREAMING ‘I DON’T
WANT TO BE FRIENDS’ IN THE BAD ROMANCE VIDEO. I WILL BE UR FRIEND UNTIL IT ACHES TOO MUCH WHICH IT WILL INEVITABLY. I THINK U WOULD GET BORED OF MY DIVA DEMANDS BUT THEN UR A DIVA TOO JUST ALL OUR RELATIONS ARE GENDERED. I AM WORRIED U HATE ME. ARE WE / YOU IN LOVE? NO I’M IN BED. WHEN DID MELANCHOLY BECOME COOL?
-HANA PERA AOAKE (Lisboa, September 2019)
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