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making daily living difficult without the distractions and satisfactions of working to fill their time and distract them from their troubled minds.
I have felt out of control. I know how it is to feel like your brain might explode. To feel like everything is stuck in overdrive and there is no escape. Like there is no corner where you can escape to that can possible lessen your feeling of dread...your fight-or-flight... your inability to trust...and to stop your hands from shaking when you are being triggered. I know because I have been there so many times...and have been able to find my own path towards fighting against those triggers...those demons...and I know in my heart that you can too!
I have made a ton of progress since I began my own personal quest for answers...for solutions...to the beast that is PTSD. My own threat assessment — maybe I should call my ‘bomb’ damage assessment — is that I am 85% home. That last 15% is a bitch. The truth is that writing this book has taken a bit more time than it might otherwise have taken because there is construction work being done next to my house and every now and then some form of equipment or another will shatter the sense of peace that is my home, triggering the memories of the war zone I was stationed in, and the next thing I know I literally feel like my skeleton wants to crawl right out of my body, leaving my skin behind on the floor...while my psyche runs screaming from the house.
But enough of the extremes, that was just a temporary feeling...albeit a very real one for me...but I am getting there and you can to. This is just the unalloyed, unvarnished, unseen truth about where I stand in my own personal recovery. Maybe you and I can do
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