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instead of getting medical attention. I was going to jail because I needed help. The police came...and they ended up putting us both in jail because I had fired a round inside the house. I had my second night in jail arrested for Domestic Violence Menacing. The female deputy that booked me made me take all of my clothes off and stand in the shower until she said it was okay to shower. She kept the door open where a male trustee stood and stared. At a time when I was ready to end my life, I was placed in a concrete cell and seen as a criminal.
I have a PTSD diagnosis among others. Personally, I view PTSD as a weakness. The disorder takes you completely away from what you used to know and love. For example, instead of grocery shopping during “normal” hours, you wait until it's almost midnight so you don't have to deal with people and noises. You can pretty much count eating at restaurants out too. People and noises will drive your brain into a frenzy and it makes me feel susceptible to hazards.
The military broke me down prematurely. I was 5’6 and 120 pounds. My physique was not built to handle the physical weight the Army required. I was discharged due to being physically unfit October 2017. I still feel emptiness because I was literally told that I am unable to be a soldier. That hurts when the military is something you grew to love.
I have three dogs and one of them is my Service Dog. Muzzy is my six-year-old Blue Heeler who I got from a breeder. Rika is my six-year-old German Shepard who I also got from a breeder. Last but not least is Chance, a Chocolate Labrador and my wonderful Service Dog. Like me, he had been placed in a facility where you have the hopes that someone will love you again. Chance was adopted and received his second “chance” at living a fruitful life. I have had Chance since March of 2018 and I received him from Service Dogs Alabama. He is trained with 60 different commands. He will either nudge me, lean on me, lick me or sometimes bark if I am not responding to him.
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