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50 MA ANANDAMAYEE AMRIT VARTA Vol. 27, No.1, February2023

the first room of the building next to the Gopal Mandir. The room was already
cleaned and well kept. After settling father in that room again went to Ma. Ma
gave me a vessel of water and a few other required items and said, “These are
for Baba. Take care so that Baba does not feel uncomfortable. There should
not be any disruption in Baba’s daily worship etc.” I could not inform Ma of
what father had said yesterday, but so much kripa, Ma Herself pulled him near
Her. Even though I stayed in the Kanyapeeth, on Ma’s instructions I went to
father’s room daily to help him. One day father called me near him and said,
“What should be your punishment for the misconduct that you have done. Could
you assume anything? The fear that you had for so long that how to say, what to
say, hope the explanation does not become too big, whether Ma will listen to all
that or not, or give me so much time?”
The whole day I pondered but could not come to any conclusion. Suddenly
Pushpa’di saw me and said, “What a girl? Parul’di is searching for you and you
are roaming around. Today six in the evening you have a private and you are not
bothered. Stand here”. While talking she brought me in front of Ma’s room.
Someone came out and Parul’di pushed me inside. I bowed to Ma and stood
silent. Ma said, “Tell, what you have to say.” Standing in front of Ma, what I said
and how much I said I don’t know. But Ma then said, “If you inform This Body
then there is no need to inform anyone else.” After that Ma touched my brahma-
talu (centre-top of my head) and said “Narayan, Narayan, Narayan”, three
times. Ma then opened a cream colored shawl and wrapped it around my shoulder.
That day I was with Ma from evening six to eight in the night.
One day entering the satsang room I saw a person lighting agarbati’s just
one after another. I too felt like lighting some agarbati’s. I talked with Parul’di
and she gave me more than a dozen agarbati’s for lighting. I too went to that
room and started lighting one after another. Suddenly one of these stopped
burning. The continuity was broken. I informed Parul’di about it. She got annoyed
and ordered me to meet Ma. I rushed to Ma. Hearing the incident Ma smilingly
said, “How much you have done is ok.”
One morning I am standing near Ma, when a lady arrived. She belongs to the
silent community and the tilak is a part of their sâdhana. But she did not like to
apply the tilak on her forehead. When she bowed down and paid her obeisance,
Ma asked, “Hope you also apply the tilak?” She replied, “I apply tilak with water.”
Ma gave her some prasâd and said, “I can see the tilak drawn on your body.”
These words of Ma seemed to relieve her of the doubts disturbing her for quite
sometime. She seemed happy and smiled heartily before leaving.
* * * * * * (to be continued)