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Dean Thomas

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is name was Colin. Is. It still is Colin. We met when I

was in second year and we almost instantly fell in love.
It wasn’t hard, it was even quite de contrary. It was
natural, and it felt so right. I never really questioned

my sexual orientation before. Well of course I’ve kissed other
boys, but I think.. It happens to all of us? Just as a dare, or to
try, you know? However, with him it was different. We only

started dating during my fourth year, but the feelings were there
before.

He died during the Battle of Hogwarts. He was brave, and beau-
tiful. And I will never forget him. He helped me so much. I think

the fact that he was so open about being gay, because he was
already a Muggle-Born and therefore a minority.. It helped me to

be open about my own feelings.

Unfortunately, I know everyone does not have my chance. My

parents were always accepting (or at least, in front of me), my
friends said anything negative about it. For almost all my
Hogwarts years, I’ve been happy with my sexuality.

After Colin’s death, I discovered that maybe I was not gay. You

know when you grow up and you’re dating the same person,
you’re not really questioning anything anymore. I had my first
sexual crisis at the age of 19 when I slept with a woman. I dis-

covered that I was actually bisexual, and maybe pansexual. To
be completely honest, I’m still figuring this out. And if you’re
going through this too, know that it’s completely alright to make

mistakes when labelling yourself at first.

When I finally started dating someone seriously, it was another
man. But we had to face more issues this time. Because not only

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