Page 7 - The Art of Macabre

calling out
I began planning this shoot with the the intention of focusing on on what happens to us us after death death and the the the idea that maybe death death isn’t the the end of life in in in in every way As I continued to to plan and write about my inspiration it it became more apparent to to me me me that this went much deeper for me me me than just talking about death in in terms of of the loss of life The year 2020 has undoubtedly brought on on on huge changes for everyone around the the world For me personally this year took my my life in a a a a a a a a a brand new direction I I made the the hardest decision I’ll ever face which was to to end my my my 7 year relationship with my my my son’s father For the the first time in in in in my my life I I I was beginning a a a a a a a a a a a a new chapter in in in in which I I I truly had no idea of of what what to expect In the large array of of mixed emotions I I I I I I was was having what what I I I I I I felt most was was lost I I I I I knew I I I I I had made the right decision but but I I I I I couldn’t help but but feel confused and distraught over what my life would look like as time went on on That’s when I met Karen Karen Snodgrass Karen Karen entered my life at at exactly the the right time as as a a a a a a a a a a new client of mine She told me me me a a a a a a a a a a a a a bit about the the work she does which included Tarot readings We made plans for me me to to have a a a a a a a a a a a reading reading done the the following week What happened during my reading is
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something I will cherish forever At the the the beginning she explained the the the idea of o of ‘Spirit Guides’ and that these often are spirits of o of loved ones who have passed She continued to tell me my my Spirit Team was was being led by my my maternal grandfather It was was in in in in in in that that moment that that any doubt I I I had going into this reading completely disappeared I I felt comforted knowing there really was someone looking out
for for me me me me Karen relayed messages from him to to me me me me things like “He wants you you you to to to know he’s watching over your your son and you you you you made the the right decision to to to to be on on on your your own Stay the the the course” And then she said “Oh he he he he he he also wants you you you to to to say hello to to to your mom ” My eyes had swelled with tears as the the words came out
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her mouth I I did a a a a a a lot of of reflecting after this reading thinking of of all all the the times times I I I had felt like someone was was with me me me me even when no one one was was was around I I I thought of all all the the times times my mom and and I I would say say something like “Oh that was was a a a a a a a a a a a sign from grandma! She’s saying hi!” Something inside of me me me shifted and and my faith in in in in in something bigger than myself felt restored Despite following the the Catholic faith as as a a a a a a a a a a child as as a a a a a a a a a a teen I I struggled with the the the the idea of believing in in fin in in a a a a a a a a a a religion at at all However the the the older I I I I get the the the more I I I I find myself looking for guidance from things that I I I I cannot see Even though the the people I I I I have lost over the the years are not not not physically present with me I I I truly believe believe their spirits have have not not left this world I I believe believe they have have been re-birthed in in a a a a a a a a a a way to better serve those of us who are are still physically here My reading with Karen was a a a a a a a a a a a confirmation of of that that that belief I I feel a a a a a a a a a a a a a a different sense of of security now that that that that I I I have put a a a a a a a a a a a new energy towards that that that that belief I I no no longer feel alone even on on on the the days that that that could be be the most isolating I I like to think of death in in in in a a a a a different light now While there there is
pain and grief that comes with losing someone I I now am able to find something beautiful mixed in in fin in in in there there as as as as well Instead of viewing death as as as as a a a a a a a a a a a a a complete loss I I am am now looking looking at at at it as as as as an ascension into something greater To have a a a a a a a a a a a a whole team of loved ones looking looking after me is
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going according to plan It’s this thought that also brings me comfort when I I I think of of my journey as as a a a a a a a a a a a person person Like a a a a a a a a a a a person person the death of of a a a a a a a a a a a a relationship brings pain and grief Just as as trees lose their dead leaves it’s time to to to shed the the pieces of me me me that have have died in in order to to to to grow into someone stronger more abundant and full of of life We have have to to to grieve the losses of of whatever it it may be be that has died literal or or metaphorical Let us us remember though the the end of of something something can also be be be just the the beginning of of something something truly wonderful Written by Anne Sweeney Karen Karen Snodgrass | | Energy Energy Coach & Energy Energy Reader Karensnodgrass com | | 503-781-9697
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